effigy

Moving on isn’t easy...especially when your past is all you can think of and the future seems vague and uncertain. its more difficult when you see the people responsible for hurting you every single day...see them happy and going on with their lives while you're still in a state of shock.
Moving on isn’t easy but that’s the only way you can stay sane.
Moving on isn’t easy but what other choice do I have?
So I am moving on...I am moving on and I am walking away from broken dreams, sleepless nights, lies, deceit, treachery, compromises and useless tears...i am moving on to whatever the future holds for me, I am moving on to a brighter day... i am moving on to realistic pursuits and practical ambitions.
Saddy said something to me the day after my engagement was called off …she said ‘Batool! Events like these in our lives make us spiral…however; the direction in which we spiral is our prerogative…you can either spiral up or you can spiral down. Spiraling down is easy… most people do it. But if you choose to spiral up, though it isn’t easy… you will end up with a view.
Saddy’s right…sometimes I can’t believe how strong she is. Sometimes I think she survives on pure will power…sometimes it surprises me how much she’s endured and how she still loves life. She didn’t give up on life and I can’t either.
So I am moving on, not as the person I was but as the person I am destined to be. I gotta leave my old self behind…

So I am going to burn an effigy of everything I used to be.