Finally came around

I found this in my old folders. I wrote it back in my B.A days, when i was probably 17/18 years old. Reading it today made me realize that i knew myself better in those days.
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It' takes a little time, sometimes but normally it's as quick as a flash, and strikes me as one too. I normally don't pay any attention to it because it's just another thing in my life, but it's one of those things that u know just exist, and u don't realize they do.
Ah, yes! It has a remarkable speed too. In a mere fraction of a second I can go places, beautiful ones that truly enchant me. I remember on one such visit I met Agha ji! And life has never been the same. He told me old tales of his childhood. He regretted losing out on his life's precious opportunities but he didn't regret losing his first love. He said" there is no bigger temptation than the dual nature of love and remember! Temptations, unlike opportunities, will always give u second chances. If you lose out on a temptation, be sure look out for it. It'll surely knock on your door again. Don't lose an opportunity though, it might be your last", saying this he got up and walked away and I haven't seen him since.

The other day, I was not going at my usual speed, simply strolling thinking how many people I have met and there r so precious few I can remember. I could still remember Shandana . She was my class fellow in the fourth grade. I still have a very vivid recollection of that friend of mine. She had the most beautiful gray eyes and blondish brown hair. She used to look like a doll and all our teachers treated her like one. She had the sweetest smile and the sunniest disposition. a true charmer if u ask me. I was happy just to be considered her friend.
Anyway, I was strolling, the weather was a bright sunny one that winter afternoon. People were passing by me. I suddenly realized two eyes were fixated in my direction .I recognized those eyes immediately. They belonged to her. She looked gorgeous as I expected, very stylish and indeed very rich. I looked at myself, plainly dressed, as always. I felt like a little girl again who was happy to be part of her lime light that really could never be mine. We exchanged pleasantries. I congratulated her on her achievements as she was now a scientist, she could have been a model but she preferred her brain over her stunning looks. I asked her as she was about to leave:"Shandi! How did u do it?" & and she smiled me that beautiful smile of hers and said:"life is always walking up to us and saying, "Come on in, the livings fine". And what do we do? Back off and take its picture".
Yes! I did meet quite a few very extra-ordinary people on my visits but no one can compare to that one encounter I had on my last visit. I was walking down a beautiful valley and I came across a lake. It simply took my breath away as the water was bluest of the blue I have ever seen in my life. The sky smiled down at the daffodils that grew around the lake. "Hello there!" a voice said. I looked in the direction of the voice and saw someone familiar, the voice, I could have sworn I had heard b-4 but I couldn't place it. "I knew u would come along" she said again. " How did u know?" I asked. "U have been walking and wandering, thinking and speculating, u have been so busy understanding others, u have lost track of who u r" I replied, " who am I?" she said" u r a griever! Hugging every tragedy covered with thorns that pierce your soul. Listen and listen well! There r chapters in everyone's life which should seldom be read and certainly not aloud. You are too busy building character, u have forgotten to do maintenance. Remember a soul cannot have a rainbow had the eyes no tears. Tragedies are necessary so you can enjoy the finer things in life. Be calm and be silent and you will find yourself to be not just a body but a mansion u can inhabit with dignity."
"How can I possibly do that?'
"It’s easy. Stop living in a world that doesn't exist and get off that couch, you have gained far too much weight."
Suddenly I heard a splash and my reflection splashed all over me. I didn't get a chance to say” goodbye"
That was my last visit. The poor old couch is now in my brother’s bedroom.