a hazy shade of winter

Its funny how life seems to skip the conventions of time to take on different shades. this year has so far been trying for me and yet, i cant stop counting my blessings. but sometimes, the blessings take a back seat and i am left wondering why the most trivial things seem to matter the most.

our morning transmission is starting and we have a new set in the studio which shows most of Blue area through wide windows. i went to the studio for prayers and since it had rained, everything looked wet which reminded me so much of winters.i could see people rushing like they are usually rushing to get indoors in winters for warmth, every man seemed to be carrying a world of responsibility on his shoulders and i was wondering...'do my worries even begin to compare'? maybe not, but i am one person who just cannot stand herself. am i the only person who is uneasy in her own skin?. why is it that everything i do is wrong. people i prayed for with all my heart have stabbed me in my back...but is that relevant? life goes on. does it not? seasons change, leaves wither, flowers wilt, colors fade,beauty wrinkles, memories take a backseat, darkness creeps into your dreams,voices grow silent, songs die and summers take on a hazy shade of winter but life...life still goes on.